i've been writing alot more then animating recently. i think it's because i want to get all my ideas down somewhere where i possibly can. so when you spend most of your free time writing, it really gets to you. you know, endlessly staring at a white screen that just has a bunch of words on it. sure, you can visualize things through your writing, but my mind keeps telling me, "what's the point? you're just writing a bunch of random symbols on a blank screen. if an illiterate person saw this, they'd just see it as a bunch of nonsense." my soul on the other hand, thinks otherwise. my soul says, "writing creatively is truly a beautiful thing. people can use their imaginations to visualize worlds that would normally be beyond someone's comprehension, but with the power of creativity, you can make the impossible, possible.

i feel like i'm constantly guided in life by two sides of myself. my physical brain (exists in physical plane) that is more cynical about both traditional morals that can be considered outdated, and new ideas that don't really seem like good ideas. then there's my metaphysical soul (exists in astral plane) that is more about creativity and being open-minded and kind. both the brain and the soul control the mind, which in turn controls you. if one is depressed and has lost all faith in life, then their soul has been untethered from their body, while their cynical brain is still operating by itself. the brain needs the soul to function in the physical plane, and when there is no soul, you're just a body operating through bodily functions. you're on auto-pilot essentially. in order to get yourself back into place, your soul needs to find it's way back into your body. only then will you have true consciousness again on the physical plane.